My baby turned one

My baby turned one. My wish was to spend Zachary’s birthday at the beach. I wanted to try so hard to celebrate my baby and find some peace. That may sound strange, but birth trauma is a complicated thing. OF COURSE, I love my baby. OF COURSE, I’m thankful he is healthy. OF COURSE, I’m grateful that we both survived. And I’m sure many out there don’t understand. And those of us that it’s happened to, would never want you to be able to understand, because you’d have to live it. Birthdays are hard. There’s the pressure to be happy and thankful about the hardest, most traumatic, day in your life. The day everything changed, the day your brain rewired because you thought you and your baby were going to die. Who wants to celebrate that? Who wants to relive the pain? Not it. So the days around his birthday, I protected, so I could cry and be angry, feel sadness for the people who let me down, and just basically feel all the feelings. Because I wanted to be able to see him and be in the moment on his actual birthday. I can’t say moments of “at this time of day last year…” didn’t creep in, but my therapist is amazing and gave me tools to stay in the moment. And you know, I did ok. I’m still here. And I’m giving myself the grace for that to be enough.

I enjoyed him on his birthday and I’m pretty proud of doing so well. Look at us! This has been the hardest year of my life and I’m here, smiling. I love you to the moon and back, Z! 😍

2019-11-23T21:05:19-06:00February 24th, 2018|Birth Trauma, PPD, PTSD, Zachary|

366 days | austin baby photographer

I sat down to do her sneak peek last night and woke up at 3:24 am with my laptop on my lap.  Motherhood kicked my butt yesterday, nonstop.  So, I’m posting this a bit late, oops.  Sorry for the delay Angela, I hope her party yesterday afternoon was a total blast!

She’s exactly 366 days old in this photo.  1 year, big girl Allison!  So much fun yesterday and boy was she a trooper when we had a random cold morning in the middle of spring!

2013-03-24T07:58:05-05:00March 24th, 2013|Client Work|

birthday boys | austin lifestyle family photographer

There are sessions that I can’t wait to run home and download and absorb the images one by one.  This was one of those!  In fact, I couldn’t even wait until I got home….I thumbed through my memory cards, image by image, sitting in the parking lot at the location….

Their pre-session client survey indicated green in their images, architecture, coy smiles, happy little boys, big blue eyes, laughs and a whole lot of love.  And that is exactly what they showed up with and shared with me.  Love it!  Larisa & Greg, it was so great to spend the morning with your family….thank you for trusting me when I said “hey, let’s meet in a parking garage”!  😉  Happy first birthday sweet boys!!

2010-06-12T10:11:35-05:00June 12th, 2010|Austin Photographer, Client Work|

austin in the dark | austin family photographer

I’ve been looking forward to this session for soooo long (July I think?!).  Little man just turned one and it was the perfect time to celebrate and capture some photos of their adorable family.  He is so cute, very busy, walking running like a champ and all boy!  I love this family shot,  Austin is such an amazing city and I feel so lucky to live here.  I shot this after dusk (f/1.2!)…

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S Family, I hope you like your sneak peek and THANK YOU for the yummy cupcakes!!  They were a huge hit with the Stradtner crowd when I walked through the door tonight!  Especially Taryn, she was all over the special orange one you made just for her =)

2009-11-14T19:41:53-06:00November 14th, 2009|Austin Photographer, Client Work|
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