Neowise Comet

2021-05-14T21:03:00-05:00July 19th, 2020|My Family, Jude, Lyndsay, National Parks, PPD, PTSD, Taryn|

Adventure! After putting Zachary and Jonah to bed I decided to take Taryn and Jude out to see the Neowise comet. Our campground sits down in a valley so we tried to drive up the road about 5 minutes. We still couldn’t see it so we drove a bit further and a bit bit further still. Soon it was pitch black with nowhere to turn a big dually around. My ptsd makes it hard for me to drive in the dark and it’s something I almost never do. I was in way over my head and near tears when we finally found a rest area to turn around. As we pulled in […]

How hard I’ve failed

2021-05-14T18:25:14-05:00July 15th, 2020|My Family, Lyndsay, PPD, PTSD, RV Life|

One of the hardest parts of PPD is feeling incapable. Learning something new? Feels impossible. That’s like torture for a creative. Being unable and paralyzed when it comes to trying something new. Since we launched in to fulltime travel almost 3 years ago, I’ve tried to learn night photography probably 6 times. Jason would see the struggle and help each and every time. I just couldn’t do it. Tonight, when I peeked out after getting Zachary to bed, I was able to see the Milky Way with a blind eye! I’ve never once seen it without a telescope. So, I decided to try again. […]

Moving on…

2019-06-21T10:08:22-05:00June 21st, 2019|Announcements, Birth Trauma, My Family, PPD, PTSD, RV Life, Seriously SEO|

Huge life update ahead.

10 years ago I had a list of photographers sitting on my desk. I regularly referred to it because after I shot my first birth I started getting requests to travel. I had 3 children at that time, Jude was just a baby so traveling with the unpredictability of birth was not an option.   I used that list to refer clients. Can you imagine writing out every birth photographer you know and having it be less than 10?! As I photographed more births, I received requests from photographers drawn to birth for me to mentor them. Later that year I started a mentoring program called The Birth Experience. It was a […]

It starts with just one post.

2019-06-20T12:15:11-05:00June 17th, 2019|RV Life, Birth Trauma, PPD, PTSD|

I wish that I would have continued to blog when we transitioned to fulltime RV life.  My blog used to be my space and it was so important to me.  Somewhere in all of this, I lost that.  I had to actually scroll way back to see when my last non-video blog post was.  Why I stopped blogging is….complicated.  Layered, I would guess you could say.  Obviously, selling the house and 90% of our stuff, changing every single thing about our lives was overwhelming and writing fell at the end of a very long list.  Especially in our quest to simplify.  Oh how I wish those thoughts and memories were documented.  It was an incredible, hard, beautiful, transformative, time for […]

My baby turned one

2019-11-23T21:05:19-06:00February 24th, 2018|Birth Trauma, PPD, PTSD, Zachary|

My baby turned one. My wish was to spend Zachary’s birthday at the beach. I wanted to try so hard to celebrate my baby and find some peace. That may sound strange, but birth trauma is a complicated thing. OF COURSE, I love my baby. OF COURSE, I’m thankful he is healthy. OF COURSE, I’m grateful that we both survived. And I’m sure many out there don’t understand. And those of us that it’s happened to, would never want you to be able to understand, because you’d have to live it. Birthdays are hard. There’s the pressure to be happy and thankful about the hardest, most traumatic, day in your life. The day everything changed, the day your brain rewired […]

He is in the quiet spaces.

2019-11-21T10:58:30-06:00December 25th, 2017|PPD, Jonah, PTSD|

He is in the quiet spaces. My faith has been all over the place this year. I’ve been closer to God and farthest from God all in the same year. I prayed and sought his will seconds before the trauma started at Zachary’s birth. He saved Zachary’s life, and likely my own. But it’s been confusing for me as I’ve worked through the trauma, a difficult path to walk over the last 11 months. Today, the kids and I found a tiny church in the woods at our campground. The door was open, but it was dark and cold. There were only a few windows and all were stained glass. The old […]

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